oh you have deceived me or I have deceived you or
whatever
this mishearing is the be all and end all and I
will fall in love
with your voice despite the image of you I cannot
will not
oh fuck it all
when did I come to expect/assume a limitless
supply
of anything? when did I come…
and when did I just hit refresh and pretend?
I can’t help your pants she said or when
did I come to expect this? to assume this
indifference?
this mishearing is the end all and be all and I
will fall
despite the ignominy and the pronunciation and the
effect
I will fall deliberately
but of course it will look the same as all routine
fallings
as all routine failings
you have deceived you and I have deceived me
or whatever
I can imagine some spiders on the floor despite
the image of you I cannot
pretend anything for very long
