Leaping From Impossibility Into

I fling myself
        this way and that, you may understand
     this flinging
this smashed, this one note that repeats (when)
        I tell myself to cry on cue but then I step
     backward

        I stop
     backward

so much to push away / this inconsistent
      ache
        I spill

but your timing is always

impeccable

the pressure required to release

this inconsistent

skin

Wake up the Monster

why’d you have to—

I have lost and found
        a flick of the tongue
        a slip of the hips
(ice      be      careful)
so

shut up sad background music
you have failed to delight me

(Please)

       observe
a pensive lurching in some direction
and then hurry back as if to erase
that dimension (while if you wait
the wind blows it all back in)
and then hurry back to wait, poised
in some direction as if to point
merely by looking at your own reflection
and wishing fervently
       for completion

       observe
a sort of poignant thrashing about amid
some nostalgic muck your middle finger
(touché) while (so to speak) if you wait
the wind blows it all back in;
the wind pulls me back on top, the wind thrusts
and parries the wind lurches
pensively I am stuck in the middle
       again

       observe
I hurry back
as if to erase
the obverse

       observe
the handwriting
I don't recognize
that I know must be yours

       observe
the ignominy, the middle finger
the point at which
we start or we begin to begin
       again

I am always doing things by accident

for instance,

this window
this elaborate façade
this drunk technique

imagining a telephone, imagining
an instant of wild abandon that never stops
a fix

I can't pin down but can't let go of
I am always doing things
I don't want to have to prove

for instance,

shining, in the corner of my eye
a dance of light of teasingness
of wishful things you sing when you aren't thinking about anything

    except love

the things
I can't pin down and can't let go of

these things I am always doing by accident
(except love)

    except love