Sunday, July 17, 2016

This is not about my heart



would this have happened if the driver were white? a gulf between
virtual and physical a composure periodically fractured by wailing a
decision not to recommend criminal charges a series of statements were un-
true an undeclared war

helmets did not shield against blunt testimony, fears
of more terrorism

Love is mercurial and painful. But I wish it for you anyway.

it's a violent tearing (neither my grief nor my love)
a stark example
“In the future I will be more circumspect.”

Love is mercurial

can we
can we "just live" with the horror?
we had
we had to run through dead people
can we hide in a café? can we jump in the sea?
we thought we were safe

and painful

you know this list already:
watering the house that's not burning
setting the bone that's not broken
pretending that pretending to be blind will save not all of us but at least you

at least you

I wish it for you anyway

"this time they will not be asked to be guilty"
pulled over at least 49 times, an average of about once every three months
   pause
killed in a town where the biggest controversies tended to be about issues like whether to build a sidewalk
   pause

maybe it's my turn to shut up again
this is definitely not about my
   heart